Attraction

Friends,
I was in church today and I thought about attraction. I know, great topic to be thinking about in church huh?








"It was a cool autumn day when a girl in a pink dress sat on a bench in a park named Winters. Why it was named Winters is an intrigue. Maybe it's after a rich lady widow, the season itself, or some important governor.

She sat down and looked around.

There were trees, a swing set blowing in the wind, mild littering, dogs roaming about with their owners, children hopping on stones to avoid drowning in hot lava below them, and a dashing young man sitting across the park from her.

Now you must be wondering what caught her attention and I am sure you hoped it to be the gentleman.

Something about him just drew her gaze. She remains nonchalant as she casually glanced his direction above her sketching in her little black drawing book. Was it his casual composure? The confident way he seemed to be studying his book? Just how sure he looked? How absolutely sure he looked about everything, the way he read and pondered about the things he read...you would have thought he was cheating and reading a script of "how to look sure of yourself while sitting at a park".

The girl in the pink dress just sat back and sighed.

As the young gentleman was peering above his book, he glanced around at his scene, the trees, children and dogs, afternoon sun glow, empty swings, and the girl in the pink dress.

Naturally he disguises his actions as much as possible as he glanced her direction. What was it about her that commanded his attention? The simplicity of her dress? How she didn't seem to try too hard to impress anyone? How mysterious she looked while drawing something? Was she drawing him and if so, this was making him all the more self conscious...Was it the confident way she seemed to handle herself as if she was a devout park attender who comes regularly therefore making him feel out of place?

The young man just sat back and sighed.

The girl sat up and closed her drawing book that hoped to bring a scene to life.
The boy sat up and closed his book that longed to infiltrate an imagination."

<3
C

Eyes

Friends,
It's about 1:30AM...and I am wondering why I am not asleep right now.

I just had a fantastic time baking with a friend. I forget how relaxing it is just to bake, talk and laugh.

Then I got to hear some music my friends made. :)

Moments like these, I thank God, close my eyes and smile. <3

Trying to stay awake,
feeling the need to do so,
as if I am expecting something to happen.

To keep connection
on going and forth,
would be something.

it would be something
too terrifyingly inconceivable,
something worth staying up for
till sun meets the eye.

one day it shouldn't be so hard,
as she mulls it over,
we'll just keep waiting,
we're so used to it.


<3
C

PS pic taken in London right by Westminster's Abbey.

Jars

Hey friends,

Isn't this fall weather just perfect besides the sneezing, watery eyes, sinus headaches, nose-blowing, overall miserable state of being...isn't it just beautiful? I mean, in the summertime all I wanted was to sit outside during the cooler part of the day and rest but there were mosquitoes...and now I want to sit outside all day long in this beautiful fall and what happens, I start to sneeze and my allergies decide to have a fiesta. fantastic. oh life.

anyways, today I got word of a performance opportunity at my former college which my band and I are definitely taking hold of! I'm not going to lie...I am really excited about it. I love my college and the people there. For me, it is one of those places full of happiness you just want to take, put in a jar and keep it just like it is forever. It feels like it has been forever since I have been back and I can't wait. Of course, this time, I get to bring new friends with me and make new music and I can't tell you how excited this makes me.

How much can change in a year? a lot and it's great. There are songs I wrote a year ago that sound completely different this time around. They speak up a bit more and have a bit more fun. I can't wait to bring this new music back to the old I left at my college a year ago and see what my friends will think. Will they like it? think it's mainstream? find it dull? be bored? jump for joy? be inspired?

I don't really know.
All I know is, I am really excited about all of this.
I think I will put all this excitement in a jar and call it a night.

Buona notte,
C

I found it.

I noticed a newsfeed that I get from NPR daily which features different musicians...and the other day they were highlighting Alicia Keys...ok I know what is going through your heads...another rendition of "fallin" or "if I ain't got you babe"...but please set that aside as I share with you how excited I was to find her interview.

During her interview, she played some Marvin Gaye, Fats Waller, old time rags and original pieces...it was impressive. While describing one of her shows, she talked about taking a portion of her concert to just play some solo piano work (jazz, classical, rags etc...) then finishing up with her original songs. That made me extremely happy.

I found it. This is what I want to do. :) Best of both worlds!

Well dear friends, got a nursing home to go to and set up some gigs there, work then finishing up some home recording!

Love, love, love,
C


PS make sure you take a break sometimes and go crunch some fall leaves under your feet please? :)

Grocery list

Friends,
I told you I would...:)

It's Friday and oh how we all adore Fridays...

So I went to store and purchased the following items:

-Orange juice (...because I am paranoid about getting sick although I believe it is just allergies)
-A bottle of Goji berry juice (because it was on sale and looked intriguing and healthy?)
-post-its (who could run out of post its honestly)
-pondered buying halloween socks but didn't
-observed a little old lady wearing this moo-moo and wondering if I will be able to pull it off when I am older.

well that was my day today at the grocery store. stay well friends.
don't let the allergies bring you down. we will survive.

love and oj,
C

Happiness hiding...

Friends,

Hope all is well as the leaves start to fall and crinkle under your feet.
I am doing splendidly. In fact, it has sort of struck me odd that I have been so content and happy this past month.

Sometimes I start to wonder if I blink, will I wake up from this dream? I mean seriously...this has got to be fake right?

My songs have started to sound oddly...dare I say....peppier? Honestly, that feels weird for me to write because a year ago, most of my songs were contemplative and probably pretty depressing. I would tell my friends about a new song and they would reply, Casie, is this another one of your depressing songs?

However, like I said, my songs these days have been happier? Happy, sad, angry, bitter, soulful...I guess you write songs where you are at in life...and I think I am actually ok with where I am at in life. Every place in life is temporary and I know I won't have these moments forever so I'll just take it as it is and stop over thinking (that's a new one for me!).

On the other side of things, some dear friends of mine have been going through dark times and I have been able to step in and bring some love and cheer into their lives. It's awesome how things work out like that sometimes.

Goodness I am rather "reflective and bloggy like" in these entries...thanks for listening to me...don't worry next time, I'll just make a list of things I got at the grocery store and leave it at that...no reflection, point, theme, metaphors, existential fluffy things I promise!!

Elated elephants,
C

Fall Mornings

<3
C

Comfortable

Friends,

I love fall. I love the smell, pumpkins, clothes, sunrises, sunsets, warm colors, change, leaves. I think most of my family and friends are tired of me going on and on about fall but they all seem to agree what a relief it is after our hot texas summers.

This week I was thinking about life and how it is full of: hard work, hardships, health issues that remained unresolved, war, hurt, disconnect from people you love, fear, doubt, noise and the list goes on. Have there ever been times that it just all hits you?

Ask people what they want most in life...you'll get varied answers but most will probably choose "a comfortable living". I guess that hit me more so this week...the word "comfortable". Where is that point? so I find myself continuing to work towards becoming "big and known" and then will I be "comfortable"? It just got me thinking...

Here and now. Yesterday, was a beautiful fall day. I got to meet a new person who shares my love of music and is coordinating a gig for me, run off to play music at a wedding rehearsal, meet up with a friend to make music which turned into partaking in a nice conversation outside in fall and then having a late night talk with some friends.

As a result, I have more music work, places to be, being bitten by mosquitoes that seem to love me more than I love fall, and a little sleep deprivation but I'm quite content.

Casie, what would make your life most comfortable?

A. being famous someday
B. having a beautiful house with a music room and wrap around porch someday
C. get some music and books published someday
D. soaking in the here and now
E. still puzzled with this word "comfortable"

Yep, gotta go with E. Alright friends, I also gotta go and get ready to see some newlyweds off with wedding musak!

Your truly,
C