Hero

To be the hero of our story
is our greatest dream,
to change the face of life's existence,
however big it seems.

I'd make all the right things shine
and the wrongs thing fade.
to be a hero here and there and in between
every minute of every day.

My way as a hero
follows each fervent step,
through many dark corners
I've not reached yet.

The farther I walk,
the more I understand,
being a hero in every part
may not be the best of plans.

Truly this is the hardest battle
faced in the heart of man,
a fight for who the hero is
and when he should take a stand.

There's more to the glamour and amor to wear,
broken pieces, shattered hearts stranded here and there.

I can't stand to look,
it burns my eyes and I can't even start to cry,
I used to wish myself a hero and now I ask myself why?

Why you think you can turn the minds of others
towards your right and wonderful ways,
Maybe not all the things you think in your head should even be
thought or said.

Reservations and patience should be your best friends,
they keep you honest and humble till the bittersweet end.

The farther I walk,
the more I understand,
You can only help,
you cannot change the situations at hand.

<3
Casie

To understand

Yours Truly,

Casie Luong

Hope

If I may muster up the courage,

I'd brush the dust from my scars and stand again,

I can't even begin to recall what normal is,

but I am a slave to it.

Tattered and torn are my sentiments towards war,

yet things must die to become alive,

I whistle with the wind,

wrestling with the silence within.

The pain she holds as life begins to spin,

things must die to grow back again,

she carries on with smiles and hopes for a day,

hoping hard for hope to have its stay.

If I may muster up the courage,

I'd soak up the tears from your eyes and be your guide.

If only I could recall what normal is,

for I am a slave to it.

Striving and searching is my heart on its wayward path,

to find a light, a hope to calm this wrath,

will my thirst be quenched, my soul satisfied?

Would I even know it if it passed me by?

The comfort she holds as she continues to spin,

things must die to live again,

she carries on with smiles and hopes for a day,

hoping hard for hope to makes its stay.

<3

C

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When I close my eyes

I close my eyes and see the stars,

they are as near as can be,

teary-eyed by the sparkling streams,

beaming holocene.

Brighter than anything I could ever repeat,

though my words can be quicker than my feet.

I close my eyes and see the stars,

bear witness to these dreams,

dreams so surreal I want to peel and drape

them all on my sleeve.

All those smells of citrus leaves bursting with life,

when I close my eyes and see the stars,

I'm reminded of above--

the far, uncertain, unreachable rose.

I close my eyes and see the stars,

impossible is near yet so very far.

I need not a hand to reach with but a heart.

As my desire bursts forth for deeper meaning,

my existence shrinks evermore,

all that I dare, or care, or bear to try for,

when I close my eyes and see the stars.

<3

C

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Dream a little dream of me cover

Have heart

I've been amazed at others. I'm always amazed at others and I know that people have their bad days and others do things that are terrible in this world. However, I love people. I love watching and listening to people. More often than not, they reflect similar thoughts, fears and doubts that I have.

I have a friend studying abroad currently and he is starting to realize that the magical powers of being in an foreign country (even with fantastic brewed beer) won't quiet the voices of doubt, frustrations and fear in his head prior to this trip.

"Once I graduate....once I move somewhere else...once I find that one person for me...once I get out of this situation...once I get away from those people...once I grow up." These are the voices that resonant within our minds. Change will happen given a different context. We believe this....more like we are tied to these thoughts like chains.

It's been amazing to reflect on these thoughts. For I too, have contemplated and often questioned my motives for wanting to move to a new city. I must say at first, I wanted to get away in hopes that everything will change, that my problems and frustrations will go away and life will be fresh and green again. These thoughts are child's play and I'm learning to put those kinds of thoughts away. They are lies and false happiness.

I have another friend who is abroad and she is starting to understand what she wants in a romantic relationship. Upon reflecting over her past relationships, she has a better understanding of who she is now; what she wants and doesn't want. Some never get to that point of understanding and then they just stop trying to believe. She wants someone to get her, her deepest fears and human qualities yet still love her.

My friends have arrived at new points of understanding and reflection about themselves. I must say this is best place to start.

I read the other day what "heart" means in the Hebrew language. Heart encompasses the mind, thought, logic, emotion and feeling. It's not just the gushy emotions we rummage through. It's the source of everything and one definition of the pictograph: the heart is a place of "authority within". Life comes from there...how we see, feel, absorb, act, think, communicate, and speak comes from there...the heart, the "authority within".

It's a God given gift to have a heart and do something with it. To know and grasp that so much life is capable from one heart. Like I said, people amaze me and it's a gift to be able to look at life with such wonder and amazement. So no need to continue listening to those terrible, childish voices that say otherwise (1 Corinthians 13:11).

Love,

C

Square 1

We all like moving from point A to point B, progressively making our way towards the end of the alphabet in order to feel like we got somewhere. Productivity and contributing to society right? In the end, we want to have figured out this thing called: life.

You hear a lot about square 1 and starting back at square 1.

Square

4 corners are 90 °

4 equal sides

P=4S

A=s²

You do the formula and it all adds up just fine.

Life

No corners or many corners (depends on how much you hide)

A good and bad side, a maybe side, a good side this time, bad side another time...

P=have you reached the end of the sky yet?

A=the air you breathe in, the thoughts you think, the worries you have, the joys you have, the fears you have, the bed you sleep in, the people you see everyday, the hearts you heal, the hearts you break, plus, the city you live in, plus, state you live in, plus, the continent, plus the places you will live in, plus the day you die and your body fills the earth back up again.

There are certain events that have occurred in my life over the past couple of months. They aren't super dramatic or terrible rather just things that force you to look at the mirror if you are brave enough. If I had the choice to go out for ice cream instead, I'd be debating what flavor I wanted to dig into, oh if only life choices were this sweet? However, these events affected my: relationships-family, platonic and romantic, family, career, outlook on life, and faith. I'd like to think I took all those obstacles, wrestled them to the ground and rose higher with my maturity where I feel I am finally becoming an adult with strands of pearls to show for, along with my big girl shoes that finally feel snug.

Rather, I feel they have exposed my immaturity and I hate to admit it but it would be even more immature of me not to. Just when you think you've got it under your belt, that somehow you have mastered level 1 and are ready to brave the second, something catches your foot and you come tumbling back down.

Once in awhile Sometimes Most times we try to pretend our tumbles don't really matter. We continue on our journey and put on the brave face for the worst to come. Yet inside, the storm already came and ravaged your remains. Sometimes I think we try to simplify life only to make it more complicated. We are all running so hard and fast and we wonder why we feel dizzy at the end of the day.

So, I find myself back to square 1, point A, and level 1...not on my own will, mind you. I would love to say that I gracefully accepted it and glided back to the beginning but I must say it was quite the opposite. Kicking, screaming, cursing involved. Though it still seems odd to me that I compare my life to living in a shape...I suppose I'm just going back to the beginning of my thoughts, my visions, faith, and dreams. Returning back, I'm starting to see: less corners to hide in, more than right and wrong, and that the sky is bigger than me.

I'm not quite sure where everyone else in the world is but that doesn't really matter. I believe one of the greatest thing is being able to go back to the first place with a different lens and restarting again just for yourself. From there stems life and there, we are able to give in a genuine way. Our existence is like a vapor in the wind (James 4:14). 200 years before, no one knew us and 200 years after, probably not either. It's just how it is. However, with this little vapor I have, I want to try my best in breathing it all in.

"When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways."

--1 Corinthians 13:11

Peace,

C