Sober

Today is 9/11 and it's a universal day in the US. Lots of families mourning the loss of loved ones while others recount exactly where they were and how they felt on such a tragic and unpredictable day. I can't believe it's been 10 years since. It's important to remember though, it keeps us sober.

As the days continue to inch towards October 7th (The Two Can Share benefit concert), I've become increasingly anxious for the outcome. We are trying out new things this year such as: more PR, ticket sales, and a new set list. I'm excited as all get out. I'm scared as all get out. As with anything new, the possibilities are uncertain.

My friend and I are trying to get sponsors within our community and it has been hmm rough. Given the state of our economy, I'd say that has put a damper on our tries. It's interesting though...you mention benefit concert and everyone is all happy and then you mention ticket sales or donating money and people freeze. The sense of "yay we are helping each other" sort of dissipates into thin air. I understand businesses have certain restrictions and obligations, etc and that some people hardly have enough to provide for their families. I get that.

So I sit here with Two can share benefit concert flyers and tickets around me on the floor, wondering 'why am I doing this'? Why the music, the dream, the idea of helping others in need of basic human necessities, the trying, the cause, the investment and feeling like all I encounter is a brick wall. I wonder myself how often I've said no to a benefit concert and how that person who organized it must have felt and how I still thought I was such a humanitarian in other aspects of my life.

I wonder, 'am I not really cut out for this'? Is this not anyone else's passion and if it isn't then how do I get the word out and get people interested? I want people to give because they want to give. It's their own decision to make.

This whole ordeal has made me look at money differently...I'm not going to lie...I'm pretty thrifty and my mom and dad probably give a whole lot more than I ever would for anything but I'm learning that it's important to understand the necessities in life and go on from there. It's a tough lesson to learn and I'm trying just like the next person.

Maybe I set the bar too high for selling tickets this year for the benefit concert but I would be most disappointed if I have set the bar too high for people in my friends and community. Furthermore, I only say these things because I've gotten to walk through these shoes of organizing a benefit concert and I can only say that my heart has been made sober through all of it.

<3

Casie