Both sides

Tears and fears and feeling proud to say "i love you" right out loud,

Dreams and schemes and circus crowds, i've looked at life that way.

But now old friends are acting strange, they shake their heads, they say I've changed.

Something's lost but something's gained in living every day.

I've looked at life from both sides now,

From win and lose, and still somehow

It's life's illusions i recall.

I really don't know life at all.

-Joni Mitchell

Well it certainly has been some time since I've jotted down my little musings on life. I just had my first performance as a lead in a musical. I must admit, until our first performance, I was starting to lose energy and excitement with each rehearsal. However, post-performance, I gained momentum back. I love playing to the audience. There is something so energizing about a performer and audience connection no matter what type of performance you have.

All that leading up to today...Thanksgiving, a much needed break to be with lots of people and eat. We don't ever take enough time to just sit and eat...soaking up the entire time with conversation and enjoyment of the food prepared. It's a truly relaxing and wonderful thing. I decided to take a walk outside halfway through the meal. It was a wise decision and even refreshing, for the weather was decked in its beautiful fall glow.

Families. History. Some good and some bad. Memories made and memories never to be brought up ever again. A holiday that is to be about love and thanksgiving doesn't quite turn out as we had expected. I must admit it's terribly disappointing when you want everyone to just enjoy each other, eat, drink and be merry. Funny thing is, I think we all feel this way. We just want it to be right and somehow it isn't and this is precisely an expectation we all carry to our family gatherings each holiday.

Gobbling the goodness leftover from the day.

Happy Thanksgiving.

Peace,

C