Backward and Forward

Some days are good, some are bad, some are iffy, and some you wished never happened. I suppose my day fell in between those somehow. It's one of those days when you forget why you do what you do. I'm referring to my music. I wonder if people think and fret over life plans as much as I do.

It's time like these where you bake, go running, crank up the music and dance and then wonder what else do you do to make these thoughts go away and why the heck haven't those knot in your stomach subsided?

I found myself going back to the "why" of it all. It's precisely moments like these where you remind yourself of the why for the sake of your beliefs, convictions, plans, type of salad dressing, relationships, etc...

It brings you back to fragrant memories, where it all started and at that moment, you smile and remember that it's going to be ok.

My moment of making music began not for an audience or even a close loved one. Rather, in my college chapel late at night where I wrote my first song. It wasn't complex. Simple chords, really. Just me, the piano, pen and paper and an experience. It was at that moment when I had meaning, an emotion and experience and I wanted to put it into some form to remember it and give it life. I had an important moment there that paved the path for which I am treading on currently.

Know your why's. For I personally believe everything you do hinges on that itty-bitty 3-letter word.

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C