the good kind

"There is a design, an alignment, a cry
Of my heart to see,
The beauty of love as it was made to be."
-Mumford and Sons

It's performance time this week. It doesn't seem real that the date is finally here! Waves of nerves pass me periodically throughout the day. I've been listening around and people are talking about the show, the music, me...and at first thought, I am thinking, how awesome...my name is getting put out there and people are talking about it...then I start to think, people are talking about me? Really? This is strange.

I'm excited. I've been excited from the very start...when the thoughts came running through my head and made its way on paper, through word of mouth, brainstorming, in songs, jam sessions, flyers, prayers, hugs, more dialogue, confusion, and it's about to come alive.

I'm nervous. I've been nervous from the very start...when thoughts of will this come through started happening, when I wasn't sure my music was good enough, the ideas faltered, people were busy with other events, etc....

well after reading this over, I think the excitement outweighs the nervousness...there is such things as good kind of nervous right?

"Just do what you need to do and everything will fall into place."
"Well, make sure not to run yourself down."
"I'm just pretty icing to the awesome cupcake that you have been baking."
"Relax Casie, everything will be fine. Promise."

...yeah what they said. :)

It's the end of Tues...tomorrow's Wed....then Thurs...then Friday and then Saturday.

I can't help but be nervous but I also can't help but smile.

<3
C