Gotta keep at it

Dearest friends,
Just got in from a performance and before shut eye, I've just got to write.

Performances are an interesting animal altogether. I love them. I got to see other fantastic musicians perform. I hope they keep making music in the years to come.

Amidst the laughter and conversations, more so my awkward/nervous rantings on stage, I think it went well.
I had fun. What was my favorite moment? Hmm...let's see...scatting...even though it was a trial run...it was fun. The unexpected, "I have no clue what I am doing but I'm doing it anyway" feeling...that was cool.

Unexpected things always happen on stage...some things that made myself cringe on the inside and others made me surprised in a good way. People may or may not catch them...and I guess I tend to forget that point. I think they caught just about everything and more! Sometimes you get it, sometimes you don't. It is what it is. I just gotta get over mistakes and maybe even enjoy the fact that whatever I did made myself cringe...at least it got some sort of reaction right? ha! oh the experiences.

Uneasiness,
good or bad,
slowly...let notes fly in the air,
uneasiness,
steady, steady my dear,

Unexpectedness
let the moment sink,
settle, rise and flow,
Unexpectedness, Uneasiness
let it all go.

Thank you to all my friends who support me still. It's weird not seeing your faces often anymore. You all are very special to me.

<3
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